I threw up twice today, the first time envy poured from my stomach with blood.The second lust, causing me to choke until god decided to make me suffer and give me that breath of air. The last five are caged under my ribs, trying to burn their way out with acid and the smell of formaldehyde is clogging up my lungs like you are clogging up my head. I love you and I hate you and I want your smokey breath to be dangerously close to my swollen lips.

see also: chapped
see also: skinned

Best friends or best enemies, I can’t stop looking at you the way my father looked at me; love and anger or maybe just frustration.

The karma police arrested me. I am locked away in the steel cage of your heart because when your eyes met mine I felt pity for you and I wanted to rip you apart inside out and stample your heart to my wall so I can see if you really love me because;;; do I love you or am I really going insane????

My sanity’s gone and my mind has blackened like last night’s victim’s insides. Rinse it away so I can see your beautiful colors again - trees, trees’ branches, grass, sun, clouds and lovers.

You are all lovers and you are all in love with being in love. Where has the love gone? Crossed the atlantic and buried itself in exotic countries with beautiful girls with roses in their hair like the piece of poetry, held today in the kingdom of literature, such beauty she carried in her painted face and cut up costume. I wish you could see her like I see her, but you are resting your precious bones because I hurt you.

I never meant to ruin you. I never meant to ruin anybody.

When you’re burning to death, your body automatically curls you into the fetal position, shuts down and you pass out before you feel too much pain. It just gives in, gives out, gives up.

You dream in blue and I dream in gold and they mesh to make this murky grey we can’t see anything through this city’s smog that’s brought the fall of our empire before it even rose. Talk about potential, and I’ll talk about a disappointment. I’ve got this silly way of always setting myself up for it. I’m drinking in the attention like it was wine, bittersweet and not quenching quite as good as water but it keeps me from going dry.

You talk to them like they are me and soon they are gonna catch on that fast sinking feeling; that painful burning; that’s too much to take.

Cut to the emergency room. 10 ccs, nurse scalpel please, doctor a tube here. We’re losing this one. Who’d care if you just let me go? There’s blood all over the floor and I feel like I’m in love. All that red. Hearts all over. Ignore the fact we’ve got one that stopped beating.

When I said I’d give you everything, I signed myself up for organ donor. The jokes on me, they’re replacing hearts with plastic these days. Who didn’t see that coming?

Las vegas is a state over. You got the strip to guide you in for landing and only one light showing you the way, but it shines brighter than any others. Now it’s a country away. See what happens when you hesitate?

I’m used to it.